the highlight of my bday was the planned celebration with my very close friends. they mean alot to me. they suck in surprising people. so they gave up n just planned something for me. really enjoyed my day with them. im not gonna list their names down one by one. tahts one of the lame things to do. as long as u guys knw who u are. its gd enuf. love u guys. thanks soo much

ok so what about my bday? ok i had a nice dinner with my family. someone tried to spoil the dinner. but whatever. let him do what he wants. i dont give a damn. my parents were sweet. my dad was being random cos he cos bought me a photography magazine which is damn awesome. awesome tips and stuff. havent complete readin it. the fun was short lived once again by somethign else. so in conclusion i just wish its not my bday today. period.

nights all. cant wait for ccc camo anf freshmen orientation programme. n i saw the tshirt alredy awesome…

see u

i wana be right
u wana be right
we wana be right
they wana be right

So whose gna be right
why do i always think im right?
do i think im right?
do u think ure right?

u feel what u felt was right
i feel that what i felt was right
we feel what we felt was right
they feel what they felt was right

do u know u know whats right?

instead of feeling better or making urself feel satisfied,

u just made urself look like the stupidest person on earth.

worst. when it comes to appearance and beauty, ur at the disadvantage.

ure just as good as the clown. or maybe u are the clown.

nah. not the clown. the clown earns money and he entertain people and put a smile on peoples’ face

but for u? mm. nah. maybe just the funny part. like u knw making a fool out of ur ugly self.

and also the negative things u say. kinda weird actually. cos whenever i see/ hear thsoe words. it reminds me of u. it somehow discribes u.

like weird eh. a fool calling someone else a fool. means ur words are meaningless. no credibility.

U LOST YOUR CREDIBILITY.

u have gd education. shows that u shud be able to use ur bloody brains.

but lately, i question ur education too. its suppose to bring u somewhere but now it doesnt seem so.

TYPICALITY

talk soo much. in the end. being a loser. not cos of what she says but rather what she did or achieve.

kinda sad. cos u damn stupid. waste ur fucking brain man.

i’d rather u donate it to a retard and replace it with teh retard’s brain. oh wait. like that there’ll be no difference. oh shit. dilemma much.

anyways, farhan did awesome for his performance on live and loaded. well done. and steve pls repair ur hp man. jel and lester slim down. fat cows. ok fine im fat too. hahha.

ok tired bye.

u know like seeing the world progressing backwards. that kinda stuff. time progresses. same for our lifes and mindset. but apparently, its not happening in some part of the world. i bet u can see it for urselves. physically growing up but not the mind and attitude. but wells. who am to say right. i might just be guilty for that.

in the first place do we even have the right to think that othrs are not maturing? i dno eh. its just funny how some people can judge others when they themselves have their own flaws. like how credible are u again? people might just feel the same way about u too. get what i mean. its very lame.

for me personally i accept people for who they are, what they like, what they wish to be or do, etc. everyone knows what they are capable of doing and know what they really love to do and aspire to be and all. sometimes its just hard lah hor. people judge too fast. without thinking. as though we know evrything on earth. lame much?

u knw i can judge anyone anything anytime. but how accurate are my judgements. i wouldnt know. if i were to judge incorrectly. goshh. it’ll be the most embarrassing thing that will ever happen to me man. how will it benefit anyway. satisfy em ego? mmm

anyway, its kinda obvious that people arent perfect and we are as flaw-ful as evryone else. u knw some can be real hideous and still judge. so its kinda funny. but anything uh. i just find it funny. judging without having solid prove. really funny. it shows how lame we can be uh.

anyways, lets grow up. u grow up. we just wana win. but win in a smarter way. dont have to try hard to win. cos it’ll make urself look damn stupid. i swear. no point getting gd education but having no brains when it comes to ur EQ and whatever actions ure doing.

people shud have a goal in life. and everyone has the right to have aspirations. u just need the passion and eye for details. and ure reaching ur goal in no time. u want it. u work for it. u get it. only u knw what to do to go all the way. and if anyone who doenst have any goals in life, they shud just shut up n think about their own life n future and not “busy-bodying” in otehr life n judge. we have no rights to do that.

just gotto wake up. cos such things are getting lamer. very amusing. see how stupidity can make u look ugly. gosh.

ok im tired. cant wait for CCC camp and orientation programme!! weee

nights all.

the quote says it all. it just feels right at first but after that, its no where near pleasure. it just turns bad and people start to regret. is it some kind of an easy ticket to making oneself feel better?

ego. ego. ego. why must such thing exists? what fun or rather what do we get for fighting or competing to be right. its obviously nice to feel that im right in all the things that i do but are we in the right position to claim that what we feel or think is right? how sure are we as humans to think that we’re right? how perfect is our assumption?

if i think that im right, u think that ure right, evryone thinks that they’re right thn whos gna give in? whos gna win? in the frst place shud there be any winner? is it about winning?

ok so compete, win and thn? whats the prize? self satisfaction? superiority? superiority = fame? popularity? whats the real prize here?? im nto sure myself man

times when i do face such problems..n i feel kinda dumb. ok yeah im tryna “win” this argument or “win” as debate.. but what do i get. self satisfaction. what can that benefit me? can it feed me or something?

often we feel intimidated by something or someone. be it caused by whatever reasons or what. usually the first thing in our mind is  “how come he/she is better thn me”. next mindset will be, “i must win this”. so what do i do next? “how to bring this person down?” or “what shud i do to make me win and make me feel better?”

most of which result to revenge. ego seeks being the best/ being the winner which then seeks revenge, arguments or fights. true?

ive no idea. still finding out. correct me if im wrong. im still confused. within myself and when i observe it from somewhere else.

i just wana lead a simple yet humble life. but temptations just haunt me, causing me unleash the ego in me. really bad. i knw. comments welcomed pls.

take care all. i love u andrea

was 25th march last wed. means 35th monthniversary!! with my gf. hahah. that meanss. next month would be our? 3rd anni man! haha. i cant wait. time flies real quick! gosh.

i do love her soo much. no matter how many issues we faced n all. through thick or thin.  seeing her smile to seeing her cry to seeing her jump for joy to seeing her get excited by the little stuff i get for her to seeing getting irritated to seeing her tryna show tantrum to seeing her sulk to touching her skin to resting on her comfy shoulders to sniffing her perfume (my fav) to hugging her tight, etc. gone thru alot of awesome, scary, happy, sad, joyful, etc, moments togethr. 

everyone has their flaws. yet unexplainable. i love her. u just knw it when u feel it inside. her face tattoed in my mind all the time. whatever words i use or things i do or problems i go through. i dno how to describe it. all i can say is that. i just cant live without you sweetie :)

whenever i raise my voice, scold u or hurt u. i truly didnt mean it at all. seeing u hurt is not even in the list of thing i want to see or experience. and ure still hot n cute alright?? haha.

my gf and myself

i love u soo much baby mmuacks! 

gd night.

sun was family day including my grandma. went to carousel for dinner. the food was great. took  some awesome pictures. will post sooners. evryone of us had fun. its ncie to see smiles and laughter around. missed my grandma a whole lot. never though i’d miss my bro’s company. he just graduated from SISPEC. hes a sergeant now. haha. attached to some camp in clementi. pics soon!

mon n wed i had mendaki relief. i earned myself 75 bucks for 3 hours of work. damnn. hahah. gd money seriously. the kids were awesome. referring to the em2 class. they pretty smart just a little playful. and the sch is just the neighbourhood across mine. so yea 5 mins journey. near gd money short hours. wat more can i ask for.

today outs with my darling sibs including our maid farhan. hahah. kidding man. newton circus – island creamery – town. overall awesome. we had much fun. great food, dessert, great time, great company. tried the nutella ice cream and apple pie. omg yummayness! haha *half faint* trip down to town was funn. but the place is truly boring. been towning alot, boring place. thn mrt-ed home with jelly n lesterox. laughed our way home. we’ll never stop making fun of each other. hahah. lester’s getting fat. boobs getting bigger. jel’s arms full of water. jaw lines disappearing. hahah. oh god we’re all getting fat! damn. hahah. sorry guys. exercise time! awesome day nigga. oh yea newton circus was awesome food! hawker centres are really awesome food heaven. simple yet awesome. i loved it!

sat’s spinelli’s interview. i just need a job man seriously. i can really feel the pinch of the recession going on. fuck much all company wanting workers who can work long terms. n stuff. how dey how.. i hve sch this april. oh anw i actually got a job as a tv production assitant for a locl production. but!!! i there certain requirements i cat fulfill. so yeah. sadly.anw  hoping for the best!

sometimes whatever we think isnt always right. cos what we think may not be what others think. sometimes we fail to notice that we are actually our own enermy. sometimes or most of the time. problems are inflicted by us n us only.

Her grilled fish which she thought it sucked. haha.
shes pretty aint she?

candid much. had steak with chicken. im such a glutton.

vday dinner was awesome! had soo much fun with her. yes we cant afford days fo meet ups or dates. thats why when we meet i never want it to end each time. its sad but what matters to me most is knowing that we love each other and that i have her in my life.

My gf’s parents’ homecoming surprise!

She really suck in spying. her parents were alrdy at the taxi stand and there she was  waiting for her parents to come out of the arrival hall. hahah.

had to wake up around 6.30 am when  3 hours before that i was at the same location (changi airport term 2) to fetch my bro who just came back from taiwan for his NS. haha

it was worth while definitely. had soo much fun with her. the long bus ride, the ya kun kaya toast breakfast, the waiting moments, the spying moments which didnt work out and lastly, seeing the smile on her face.  its really worth it. i miss u babe.

hoping for the best for ur exams honey.
i love ya

nights

anw right, i tell u first. today right i go student interview training lors. damn cool sia. beh tahan one i tell u frst. like damn cool uh. thn damn sian one i forget bring specs. thn see no balls when the excutive producer present on the screen sia. see beh song! beh tahan serious. but nvm lor. got to knw about the my job as student interviewer for the singapore entrepeneur award hor. wahh song booo. need to nominate company siaa..thn interview owner or ceo or the company. wah shiok i tell u. im damn excited one. thn hor one interview 100 bucks wahh..ssrious. i happy monkey. and good for portfolio, experience and all sia. cheebye. steady one i damn excited i get chosen.

wah thn hor. i shock serious. i go in hor wah steady only lah. i never print my curricular vitae. cheebye. damn sian. i scared bodoh. but thn hor i got explain to the exec. producer. she nice one. oh oh thn hor. wahh i damn shock sia. out of the 10 people uh, only me and farhan poly lehh. wahh like steady only. like no shame one. thn hor. 7 from NUS 1 from NTU plus we all. nabei. like cannot believe one. but hor..need to introduce ourselves and say why we want to do this interview thing. wah cb i swear i damn scared. say infrnt of all tehse people. wahh.. but thn hor. i did ok lor. sian. damn cool one.

i cannot wait to start one serious. i need to reserahc now to find who i should choose to nominate and interview. like shiok serious. cannot wait one. nang bo ti nang. tuay bu tuay?

gd exposure siaa. thn experience. relevant to my diploma sia cb. thn if good one uh. i get cert from the board of governers siaa.. and when i submit the interview my profile and transcript will be on the net lorr. shiokkk. can showcase my skills to 7o0oo or more people voting forn these people sia. wah gd chance one. i like. like damn steady man.

k i tell u frst uh. i damn tired knw. i dno why one. thn i think i alwayswant slp frst like that. so right. gd night la k. i see u tomollow. steady? kk zhao.

wan an.. wo ai ni many